the art of living

This article is devoted to the man that has been next to me for the last 13 years… The man that has carried me through all this time despite the difficulties. He is my comfort, my strength and the oxygen I breathe…

Sometimes saying ‘I love you ‘ doesn’t seem enough… It’s a word that cannot describe how I feel! Don’t take me for a silly romantic. There were times of doubts, times of not being sure he is the one, times of frustration. But every time the storm passed I just loved more than before. I just knew more than before that he is the one.

He has always been there, listening, supporting, understanding, comforting, taking the stress away, sharing tears… And I have pushed, and upset him and stressed him and drained him… Because this is me: never fully happy, drowning in a spoonful of water sometimes, struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel… And every time I break him I realise how wrong I am, how I am hurting him. And I swear it’s the last thing I want to do. And I swear I want to change! Because I Love him!! Because he is my life!! Because he is more than enough and I am complete with him!!

I do take care of him and make him happy! But I need to control better those moments my darkness takes over me… It is not worth him being worried about me. It is not worth his despair… And this time has been life changing and we are tired and pushed to our limits. But I know we can make it, I know we will get through it because it’s us, together! We are a team!

To my Love: I promise to be better! I promise to be stronger! For you, for us, for all of us… And if any of you out there are the same like me, please pause for a second when you are overstressed or tired… You will take it out on the people you love, because that’s how it is. That’s where you can let go. But be careful because those who love us are not obliged to constantly pick up the pieces. It will make them tired and if we lose them it will be our fault.

I have to fight with myself now, but for him I would do anything, because without him I wouldn’t be who I am today! Goodnight!